There will be a brand new Nightly Show Podcast recorded tonight! It has been a while and maybe these recordings could be better at toning down some and serving forth the Word in a much more pleasant, pleasing way from now on. I know I remember the last few have been quite aggressive, cussing and damning everybody and everything I could flip my tongue up to speak about!
Yea, let’s change that! After all, what kind of audience is it exactly that I am trying to pursure and to keep.
I am supposed to go to rehab tomorrow in Uniontown, Pennsylvania at a place called Genesis Ministry Houseand begin my recovery process to getting better and well. However, I think I am going to change my mind at the last minute for some reason. I was told I wouldn’t be able to hold onto my phone where I’d be able to use it at anytime while in treatment for the entire 6 months ahead of me and I just can’t take the idea of not having access to my variety of Apps that include YouTube and many awesome Christian believers Apps, as well as Social Media and Music of course.
I honestly believe we are inside of the coming final days and the Biblical End Times are just ahead of us. If I am correct there’s no escaping it! I just want to make sure that I’m up and located in the most proper place I can be when regarding natural disasters, diseases, famine, war, pestilences, and false teachers and false prophets are concerned. The Bible says we are to flee to the mountains and do not take flight in the Winter at this time..also it is not good for a woman to be nursing and giving suck at this time either. We are gonna wanna be where Yah the Most High desires us to be and where we have put forth our best effort to search out and prelocate. So…
I also have wasted the last two years of my life, when I could have been enjoying myself, having a good time, and being filled with the joy of the Lord as I was fulfilling my purpose and meaning for my life,but instead I was caught up in a waste of life, using and abusing illicit ice, crystal, death, and letting days, weeks, months, and then a couple years to pass me right by while I wasted my body, mind, Spirit, and soul regularly and quite forthputtingly. I am aware one of the reasons I relapsed two years ago was because I was in awe struck by Jesus delivering me and my life from addiction and mental illness. He did it through the holy Bible and also SSRI medication mixed together with a atypical antipsychotics combo. The sky cleared up and was bright and shining! The Lord was good and I knew this now at that time and was so newly blessed to have my newfound Salvation and all the newly given promises of Yahuah Almighty. But, it was when my mind started pondering away at it’s new level of peace and serenity that it came up with a thought that really happened to upset me very much so and I was sure as to how to deal with it right away it at all. That was the idea that now that Christ has pursued me and delivered me from my bondage and strongholds and afflictions, I woke one morning to realized Oh God is so Good So so Good All the Time and Now I Know and am Blessed but wait …I feel good for a out the first time in my natural born human life, yet I recall last night’s and last week’s indepth studies into the Scriptures and Eschatological prophecies and have been shown by the Set Apart Spirit that we are very close to closing out the final days of this world and usher in a new Heaven and a new Earth and a Millenial Kingdom, and fulfilling prophetically the final 7 years or so of the end times. This means we must get ready for what the Bible describes as the worst the world has ever experienced or known from it’s early beginning back at the start of time. We must go through some pretty, very rough times before we get to see and be where we are at the place we will forever and ever be able to experience and know the absolute best place to have ever existed…a place with not one once of sin, a place with no more pain, not a single once of suffering, no more sorrow or tears either, and this will be for Eternal, Everlasting Life!
So picking back up to what it was that came into my recognition that caused to put me on this relapse for the last two years, well, remember this was the best I have felt almost for the first time ever in my life before because for the majority of my existence prior to these antidepressants and antipsychotics, I was found suffering with chronic mental illness and mental health problems like it was nobodies business. 😑. But, 4-6weeks on these pills, just as much time off of illegal street drugs and powder, and some much needed time sitting in my knees at the side of my bed, hands folded, eyes shut, sending up prayers to the Heavenly Hosts holy indebted ear, asking for insight into the Scriptures, to obtain wisdom, knowledge, and understanding…helping me understand the verses before me as I dissect them one by one, breaking them down, line upon line,precept upon precept…slowly going back over the words forcefully remembering them in my mind, emphasizing on them in my head hoping they’d forever stick and stay, making them selves readily available for me to recollect at any future coming moment of time when I may decide to take a gander through meditating purposefully inside my head in order to bring them back up, surfacing them to the forefront of the platform of my mind, and rehearsing them proudly, stressing the words with great exclamation as they whipped off the tip of my tongue and echoed off the back of my throat for the Adversary to hear, accept, and soak in as he flys by through the air like the little predator he is, far from a prince…getting a strong blunt hit in his chin by the force laid out by the Power and punch of the Word of God, also cutting him sharply down his side, dividing parts of his cunning, powerful, baffling mass and weight also slicing parts of his damned, delusional, and deceiving, invisible insides to the outside and fallen distastefully down to the dirt of the ground this full moon evening night.
It’s just that I all of a sudden realized in a moment of time as I was standing outside my front porch, pleasantly taking aback the full measure of the sun and all it’s heated beams as they shinned their rays assuredly down upon my paled make skin, taking it all in, every single second of extreme comfort and ways…yes in the absolute bliss of the moment for what it was set as to be on this superb and wonderous awestruck, superiorly savage yet sweet warm Summer day,..in the essence of a single nanosecond of a momenta time an intrusive and saddening thought came upon my mind and just decided to set there for a minute and simmer unto me,forcing me to reflect upon what I soon found to be a very disturbing realization that even tho. I quickly set out to destroy it with an answer that would feed it’s hungry desire to be sitting here growling at me, I once again quickly found out that there would be no answer that was to be coming to any part of my active mind anytime soon, even if I thought my hardest for one, no amount of anguish would remove my newly observed obsession that was highly disturbing me and leaving no way out for any sort of tiny minute way for me to be relieved of it, enlightened by an answer to appease it’s passive aggressive oppression upon me and my depressed saddened mind…the thought had me realizing that for the first time in my life I was feeling good and full of self confidence and self esteem, really like I may instead of dread every second of every moment leading into. The near and also extended future of my life, that just maybe I would actually enjoy the passing moments and efforts and work I put out forth from this day on, most surprisingly realizing that as I stood out front my apartment down off the porch, below, down on the sidewalk, that it was not only the sun shining down upon my face, neck, legs,and arms that had me feeling different and great,but it was a long lost newly resurrected feeling and passion that inside I was actually building up the necessary elements to very soon and right then and there become overly excited about the idea of someday soon and also farout being able to live my future, a life of laughter,smiles, glee, and happiness, peace, confidence, comfort, and joy,and it felt damn good!! However, be that as it was though, it wasn’t okay and it was overtaken and invaded by the intrusive idea of remberance, of only nights and nights and maybe a week or so before, I was giving insight and a look into the inner depths of some of the deeper doctrines of Bible prophecy and Bible Eschology. And as sure as I was that standing there happy and heated I was just as sure of the things Jehovah Raphi,the Lord my Shepard led me into reading and discovering inside the pages of God’s Holy Word and the thin crisp paper pages of the Set Apart Scriptures.
I found out time we are drawing upon is super super short and when I took and added together this prophetic realization next to the idea and thought that I would really really REALLY, liked to get excited about my life and future and then go and do something about it, living it out in an obviously not fully perfect way but none the less more than I’ve ever experienced or have ever known in my past a very pleasing way…it just stopped me cold on my thoughts and stopped me cold on my baskin for pleasure, peace, and joy in the heat of the moment under the hard beaten down pulse of the sun, and took me through a stucken moment of mind lapse where I couldn’t figure out two things, first how it was that I so quickly and unwantingly ended up, found myself transfered from a warm, pleasing, moment of pleasure, peace, love, and hope, now into a singled out, briskly coldened, shocked, stupified, stuck, saddened, moment of hopelessness and next if I would be able to overcome this saddened realization I had invited upon myself by remembrance and an undesirable combinational relieves.
Certainly End Time Prophecy and Eschology was and is not going to change itself or it’s numbers for anybody or anything, no passionate desire could and/or would ever change the motion of in which things, times, and years, have been numbered and laid out before us from the Scriptures and the revealed prophecies found in the depths of the Holy Truth.
So, I don’t think I ever did make a day, make a moment and become okay with this realization that came upon me some 2 and half years ago before I relapsed on crystal meth…so maybe I shall tonight, maybe as I walk down this lonely dark sidewalk on my way to a homeless spot where I have propped a tent for a few nights, as I was awaiting to take my couple hour trip out Western PA to the Genesis Ministry Rehab House where I’m to do 6 months of programming there…so maybe on tonight Podcast that I shall do. ,🌿😫🌜🖤☠️
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Jacob Daniel "Daily & Nightly" 